inspired by true events
Ivy, a struggling singer in New Orleans trapped in the hidden underworld of her eating disorder, must face her addiction - or risk becoming a monster.
why tell this story?
Shapeless is based deeply on my personal experience. Growing up, I loved to sing & as a young girl who never quite felt like she belonged, singing was my authenticity, respite & belonging. As I moved into my teenage years, depression & anxiety pummeled me. In response, I developed bulimia at the age of 14. I didn't decide to do it, it just sprouted from a necessity to feel better. Then I spiraled further, addicted to the feelings binging, purging & restricting gave me. I never heard anyone talk openly about eating disorders & learned not to talk about 'those things'. Those things, being my mental health issues.
After suffering in silence for many years I finally went to treatment. But real healing came later, when I began writing Shapeless. The art of collaborating allowed me to be vulnerable. Each time I opened up, my shame lessened a little. As lead actor, portraying Ivy is the work I am proudest. My ultimate 'screw you' to shame. I've lost friends because when they relapsed shame silenced them. Shame killed them.
Shapeless is an invitation to the mental health conversation. We hope to inspire others to have their own uncomfortable, life-saving conversations. Because now is the time to talk about those things."
- Kelly Murtagh, Writer & Lead Actor
If you or anyone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, body dysmorphia, or thoughts of self-harm, seek help now.
Please go to www.theprojectheal.org for resources and help.